lecture, after lecture, after lecture.

learning, thinking, improving, failing, starting again, fine-tuning, practising, feeling worn out and hungry, smiling, working consistently. searching for something.

Michelangelo said he saw the angel in the marble and carved until he set him free.

in a way, he is the angel. because there was no angel, it was white calcium carbonate. but he saw it and he felt that he was trapped in it. and he carved it, painstakingly, chisel to marble. each angle, curvature, depth, strength applied. the face of his angel, eyes, nose, lips, shoulders...and his expression...LOL and meanwhile, what does the world think while he was working on his angel? people only saw the white soot littering his hair, with dirty fingernails, standing 24/7 beside the piece of rock, looking more like a blue-collar factory labourer, than an artist on the quest of self-actualizing.

oh wow. haha.

i'm not even sure this is how Michelangelo looks like when he works. i just get this impression, maybe out of some documentary i've watched?

hmm... haha. feel a bit more motivated to work hard and get done with my CSC homework now LOLS. oh and mu qiao's quotes are classic.

she said, something along these lines...

Muqiao: i've discovered the ONE, and only way to get As.

Xinyi: Haha. what way?

Muqiao: just work. you've to seat at your table, from morning to night. for maybe a few weeks straight, and just keep working. just do work, eat, sleep, do work, go toilet, do work.

Xinyi: LOLS!

Muqiao: that's the only way. really.

and that crazy ancient person just looks so proud at having discovered such a tedious way of achieving success. and she looks so excited thinking about the amount of hard core work she's put it and gotta put it. LOLs. and she's asking me why i consider her different from the rest? then again, what other way to getting As was i expecting there to be?

oh and another one.

Xinyi: huh? LOL. but what if you get tired of doing maths questions the whole day. then how? sometimes just sian...

Muqiao: you can dont do maths in the day, and still do well if you can dream of solving them at night.

haha. something along these lines. really put things in perspective. (: sometimes when you get worn out and tired from all the mugging, some good friends really help you see the angel in the marble, rather than the huge remaining piece of rock which you've yet sculptured and the fact that you're coughing out marble dust.

thank you mq! :)

LOLS and happy birthday CK!

i think i'm such a loyal friend.

because i believe, having something should be forever, if not, why bother having them in the first place? if it's just temporary, fake, for convenience, for practical reasons, for some empty laughs, to boost popularity rate, then why bother?

then again, i'm blessed enough not to have to work as a clown in the circus.

haix. so am i doing what i'm suppose to do to pay back this good fortune?

:( i read this line out of the book. it's our GP text if you're wondering. haha. Socrates said, how long will you delay to be wise?

LOLS. go eat dinner then study!